Black Christian Mind

How Easy It Is To Become Demon Possessed
by Sabrina Dawkins

Demon possession isn’t necessarily playing with a Ouija board and then climbing up walls on all fours, rotating one’s head 360 degrees, and talking in a deep guttural voice, as they portray in the movies. I recently unintentionally became temporarily possessed because of watching a 20-minute YouTube video.

A few days ago I wanted to do some research on how other people are led to do horrible things by demonic influence. I guess you could call it primary source demonology research. My goal was to be able to expose demons working in the lives of major influencers so that their followers would not be led astray, down a dark dead-end road. I had watched YouTube clips of Huey Newton interviews and part of a talk show appearance. Later, a shooting rampage perpetrator from some years back came to mind. So I watched a couple YouTube videos by the killer, created a few years before the murders, explaining his belief system, a hodgepodge of New Age self-help mixed in with a misattributed Bible verse and imagined Bible verses—he admitted unsurety concerning whether or not they were actually in the Bible.

Huey Newton’s eyes were so black, so demonic, his face so menacing that I could not watch that many of his interview clips. I force-fed myself what I could take, however. And as he rambled on, as a convicted criminal, about the need for the redistribution of wealth, my mind started to wander. Absent was the piercing, coherent wisdom of a Malcolm X, whose words effortlessly grabbed hold of me and created within me a clear and comprehensive understanding of his inner thoughts and convictions, which fit together like a completed puzzle. Huey’s words were like a non-stop flow of popular political slogans strung together—no real pauses in between words to deeply consider what he would say next, as if he had no self-reflection, only wants, demands. He reminded me of a puppet whom some unseen force had put its hand in and just moved the mouth parts nonstop for some hidden agenda.

Happy to be done with the demonic face and propaganda of Huey Newton and undeterred by the uneasiness I had felt watching his videos, I went on to research the next demoniac. He had meditation music playing in the background as he gave the viewer advice on asking the guardian angels for things. He said that if a person asks for something for the greater good, then it will be granted quickly, but if a person asks the guardian angels or the universe for something unrighteous like a strip club, then the request will still be granted, but it will take a much longer time to come to fruition because it doesn’t benefit the greater good. He chuckled as he said the requester would have to wait a really long time to get a strip club.

I couldn’t imagine that this smiling, calm, charismatic male in his late 20s but with a baby face would be capable of murdering random people just a few years later. In the video he was clearly under the influence of New Ageism, a dressed-up form of communicating with demons, whom he called guardian angels. The meditation music in the background along with his soft smile and periodic chuckling put me at ease and sneakily plunged me into a light trance, I realized afterwards, a waking sleep into his dreamworld of lies; in it, he was a friendly teacher, giving harmless New Age advice on calling on one’s own personal servant angels to manifest one’s will. It didn’t matter too much that he misattributed a popular saying he’d heard to the Bible and guessed concerning the existence of other supposed Bible verses—he didn’t know the Bible, but at least he was being honest by saying he wasn’t sure about the sayings he attributed to Jesus. He was just trying to help, right? A soft, soothing instrumental playing in the background, a soft smile, and nothing but positive, feel-good advice—it was clearly wrong, but there was no indication to me that anything was going on other than a would-be nice boy misled by demons.

Towards the end of the 20-minute video, I started to have uncontrollable laughter. But the laughter wasn’t random, it was paired with thoughts and images that in my regular state I would’ve never found funny. And those thoughts and images were replayed over and over in my head; and the laughter that followed, I could not stop. I felt ashamed and evil. The things I was laughing at were not jokes, but events that preceded punishment or death for people in the Bible. But somehow my mind or whatever was influencing my mind for those few minutes at the end of the video and for up to 10 minutes after I had finished watching it had been able to briefly twist those events into a joke that I couldn’t help but laugh at. A little over 10 minutes thereafter, I was back to normal, and I could find nothing funny about what had replayed in my mind over and over again just minutes before.

The next day I was given insight into the disturbing laughter and the images and thoughts that accompanied it, twisted into a joke that my mind could not resist finding funny for about a little more than 10 minutes as the video ended and for a little while after. I was reminded of the involuntary orgasms I had suffered from: During sleep demonic, grotesque sexual images would be played over and over again in my head during a dream until an involuntary orgasm would occur, which would instantly wake me up, but always too late to stop the orgasm, which was already in motion. The problem was, if I were to think of sexual images from which to become aroused, the ones played for me were not ones I would have even imagined—they were gross. So how did they lead to involuntary orgasm? They didn’t.

What was happening was the demonic forces were trying to get me to associate my sexual arousal with those filthy, grotesque images that they fed my mind during sleep. They were trying to condition me to accept and desire sexual debauchery. The problem was that the images that they fed my mind were too far away from my own thoughts and desires, so I never accepted them as my own and therefore saw the involuntary orgasms as annoyances, temptations generated by demons that were accompanied by gross images that I wished I could unsee. The evil spirits would cause the organism by biological means and superimpose their demonic sexual images so that my mind would associate the two. It never happened. Plus, the fact that it occurred during sleep ensured that I would never accept the orgasm as my doing.

But the uncontrollable laughter was different. It happened while I was awake, or while I thought I was awake. I didn’t realize until after the video that I had been put in a trance, a waking sleep, hypnotized by the charismatic figure on the screen playing soft music and talking about communication with his “angels.” And while in that light trance, I had temporarily lost control of my body—whatever the demons wanted me to find funny, I found funny while I was still in the trance, still under their influence. And what does a demon want more than to mock God, have people laugh at him?

When I was given by supernatural means insight concerning the connection between involuntary orgasms during sleep occurring alongside replayed gross images that in waking life I wouldn’t find arousing and my involuntary laughter occurring alongside biblical events that in a truly wakened state I would have never found funny, I realized that I had become temporarily possessed, and it was my fault. I had given my ear to a demoniac for insight, and in return he had given me his demon(s). It didn’t stay, and the Holy Spirit shed light on its activity and why the involuntary laughter had occurred: I had let it in. I let a demon put me in a trance so that it could temporarily gain control over my body.

I now think back on all the YouTube videos I’ve watched in the past by clear demoniacs. I watched the videos for insight into the dark side in order to try to expose Satan’s schemes and to become I guess an expert demonologist. And I must admit, many of them were quite entertaining. And I did gain some understanding of the dark forces, but at what cost, occasional involuntary orgasms during sleep, gross sexual and/or horrific dreams that I cannot unsee, the temporary loss of control of my own body, being cursed secretly by the YouTube witches and the demons who controlled them as I tried to peek into the darkness? It wasn’t worth it. I say that now with confidence.

Some demoniacs, like Huey Newton, will give you obvious signs of possession just in their appearance if you are spiritually awake. But this baby-faced killer had slipped me into a trance without my even being aware until it was too late. He died on the scene, killed after he’d killed others, but the force that had influenced him, taken over his body, and driven him to murder was still alive and dangerous, as I found out the hard way.

God allows us to suffer the consequences of our actions and choices because he hopes that we will learn from them through the results of our sins. Sometimes it can take longer than it should to connect bad results with wrong decisions. I learned the other day that I can still be possessed. Reliance on demonic forces to provide me with truth was their welcome into my body for those approximate 10 minutes. I had thought I was too spiritually clean to be possessed. How could listening to the New Age philosophy of a demoniac with comforting music playing in the background penetrate the Holy Spirit that resided in me? Well, when I decided to rely on the insight of the dark forces, giving them my attention by listening to their puppets, the Holy Spirit was supplanted, whom I should’ve trusted and depended on for all wisdom. And God gave me a taste of what it is like to be filled with the guidance and insight of demonic spirits: a loss of self-control, evil thoughts replayed over and over, and the subtle path leading ultimately to destruction.

A few days before my final decision to not listen to or watch demoniacs for even objective research into the workings of the dark forces, I was given a warning. After I had just finished watching a video by a YouTube content creator with a large following who regularly uploaded videos, a clear demoniac, a clever one who knew a lot about the workings of evil in the earth and wore the disguise of a truth-teller—frequent cursing, videos trying to disprove the Bible, laughing at serious issues—I was given the vivid waking vision of a clear, clean glass being filled with a dark brown liquid the color of Coke. And I knew instantly that it meant that his content filled the pure, clean soul with darkness, evil, and filth, and that is what would happen to me if I continued watching his videos, so I stopped. But I reasoned within myself that if I just listened to demoniacs who were not knowingly working for the dark forces but seemingly only tricked by evil, then I would receive pure insight into the workings of darkness in order to help others get out of it. I thought Huey Newton was only working for himself, for his own gain, and that the relatively recent killer with the baby face was a pawn in the devil’s game of divide and conquer, stirring up hate.

The truth was that all three were being puppeteered by evil spirits, knowingly or unknowingly. And it was the evil spirits who constructed their speeches in a way that would hypnotize or entrance the viewer or listener to fall under the demon’s spell. Luckily for me, it was only temporary. “There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death” (Proverbs 14:12). God didn’t want me researching evil by listening to evil people, he wanted me to rely on him for anything I wanted to know.